Ugh, I'm not feeling so good this morning.
(It's a long weekend here in Australia and the day's half gone already; normally I'm out of the house by 7.45am for work on a Monday)
Nausea's hit me and it could be anything - the muffin/hot chocolate I ate while out yesterday, eating cheese and biscuits before bed last night with the hubby, or the BCP (Microgynon 30) I've been taking for the past two days.
If it's the last one, I'm disappointed that I'm having symptoms already (me and the BCP have never gotten along well in the past) and there's still three weeks to go of this stage. If it's any other reason, well I'll certainly find out in the next day or two.
Hubby joked that I'm pregnant already, that resulted in daggers cast in his general direction (trust me, my love, my body tells me otherwise!)
This may be a long eight weeks!
June 14, 2010
June 11, 2010
Kindergarten Anecdotes
A watched pot never boils, and neither do periods apparently.
I’m still late (though nothing to get excited about), but feeling like I’ll get it any minute now for the past two days. I’m hoping that this entry is the catalyst that my body needs to kick-start into action or – even better – it’s already started. I picked up my Pill prescription from the pharmacy during my lunch break today, since it was the local one near work I’m glad there weren’t any Kindergarten families in there at the time as the pharmacist asked me a few questions (it was a particular kind of Pill, I thought I’d had it before but it turns out it was just the brand rather than the tablets themselves). It felt kind of odd to be picking up a contraceptive pill prescription, like it’s the antimatter to what I’m trying to achieve.
P.S. – Our IVF nurse called today to introduce herself, she sounds really nice. Unfortunately I couldn’t make an appointment with her just yet (to pick up the other medications etc) until my cycle starts. It’s a long weekend here (the last until November!) so it can wait until Tuesday now... no pressure. :)
I was in my office afterwards, nibbling on lunch while doing some paperwork and the other four year-old group was in session (different teacher). One of the little girls in the group (ever-so-patiently) knocked on the transparent glass door before I opened it, and out of nowhere she asked “where are your kids today?”
I asked if she meant my Kinder group.
“No, the ones in your tummy”.
“They’re not there yet”, I replied.
“But why?”
“Sometimes it takes a long time for them to get there”
“Do you have to wait?”
“Yes... I have to wait”
“Will they come soon?”
“I hope so”
“Me too... I love you”
Although I can’t decide whether that exchange or being asked by one of my own group’s children what I wanted to be when I grew up made me smile more. Life is full of possibilities.
I’m still late (though nothing to get excited about), but feeling like I’ll get it any minute now for the past two days. I’m hoping that this entry is the catalyst that my body needs to kick-start into action or – even better – it’s already started. I picked up my Pill prescription from the pharmacy during my lunch break today, since it was the local one near work I’m glad there weren’t any Kindergarten families in there at the time as the pharmacist asked me a few questions (it was a particular kind of Pill, I thought I’d had it before but it turns out it was just the brand rather than the tablets themselves). It felt kind of odd to be picking up a contraceptive pill prescription, like it’s the antimatter to what I’m trying to achieve.
P.S. – Our IVF nurse called today to introduce herself, she sounds really nice. Unfortunately I couldn’t make an appointment with her just yet (to pick up the other medications etc) until my cycle starts. It’s a long weekend here (the last until November!) so it can wait until Tuesday now... no pressure. :)
I was in my office afterwards, nibbling on lunch while doing some paperwork and the other four year-old group was in session (different teacher). One of the little girls in the group (ever-so-patiently) knocked on the transparent glass door before I opened it, and out of nowhere she asked “where are your kids today?”
I asked if she meant my Kinder group.
“No, the ones in your tummy”.
“They’re not there yet”, I replied.
“But why?”
“Sometimes it takes a long time for them to get there”
“Do you have to wait?”
“Yes... I have to wait”
“Will they come soon?”
“I hope so”
“Me too... I love you”
Although I can’t decide whether that exchange or being asked by one of my own group’s children what I wanted to be when I grew up made me smile more. Life is full of possibilities.
June 10, 2010
IVF #1 is Starting!
Yesterday was our appointment with the fertility specialist (also an unscheduled pap smear, of course I wasn’t prepared... you ladies will know what I mean; my knee-high striped socks also remained on, which added to the sense of wonder). Hubby and I both had test results returned (good and good) and we got the official all-clear to start down-regulation on my next cycle.
Excitement much? You bet! Three weeks of being on the Pill, some doses of the Synarel nasal spray and I’m good to go with the injections! I saw my naturopath this morning too, and she asked if there’s any possibility that I’m pregnant now because my period’s running a little late (I doubt it, I tested negative the other day), and we laughed at the irony of it all. She’s pleased for me too, and has recommended acupuncture if we don’t conceive within our first couple of IVF cycles.
A really positive day, and a big possibility that I start the ‘stim’ (injectable) cycle in four weeks time.
I've never been more excited to get a period in my life (judging by how I'm feeling, in the next day or two I think).
Excitement much? You bet! Three weeks of being on the Pill, some doses of the Synarel nasal spray and I’m good to go with the injections! I saw my naturopath this morning too, and she asked if there’s any possibility that I’m pregnant now because my period’s running a little late (I doubt it, I tested negative the other day), and we laughed at the irony of it all. She’s pleased for me too, and has recommended acupuncture if we don’t conceive within our first couple of IVF cycles.
A really positive day, and a big possibility that I start the ‘stim’ (injectable) cycle in four weeks time.
I've never been more excited to get a period in my life (judging by how I'm feeling, in the next day or two I think).
May 27, 2010
Kittens
So I kept the promise I made to myself of not calling Monash IVF prematurely, instead waiting until I received the information/registeration pack in the mail. Hubby and I are now the proud (lol) owners of little barcoded laminated cards, a thickly-bound book of information and one counselling appointment (next Tuesday, June 1st).
The thing that made me laugh the most was the IVF newsletter enclosed. Not because of the content but because of the cover... it's covered in kittens. I can just imagine the scene now...
Person A: "What do we put on there this quarter?"
Person B: "Babies? Chocolate"
Person A: "No.... kittens. Infertile women love kittens"
Person B: "Rightio, kittens it is".
I promise I'm sane. Just in waiting mode. :P
May 16, 2010
Resisting the Urge
I'm proud of myself for resisting the urge and not call Monash IVF to check they received our registration on Friday - instead I'm waiting until Monday afternoon because it's entirely more realistic that they will have received and processed our forms.
I started a new cycle yesterday and cramps have been kicking my arse both days. So much so that I'm sitting in bed with my laptop and it's already 12.35pm (ho hum!). Sure, it's Sunday and a designated 'lazy day' but old habits die hard and I want to be productive too. Perhaps I'll do a little work for the week ahead later in the afternoon. Or find an excuse to take photos somewhere -- I've been in a picture-rut since December, I realise.
Speaking of cycles, I'm guessing that this one will be the last 'natural' one for a couple of months (before down regulating and stimming), both a little poignant and frightening. My poor bank account's going to take a battering this year...!
I started a new cycle yesterday and cramps have been kicking my arse both days. So much so that I'm sitting in bed with my laptop and it's already 12.35pm (ho hum!). Sure, it's Sunday and a designated 'lazy day' but old habits die hard and I want to be productive too. Perhaps I'll do a little work for the week ahead later in the afternoon. Or find an excuse to take photos somewhere -- I've been in a picture-rut since December, I realise.
Speaking of cycles, I'm guessing that this one will be the last 'natural' one for a couple of months (before down regulating and stimming), both a little poignant and frightening. My poor bank account's going to take a battering this year...!
May 13, 2010
In the Mail
*thumbs up*
Hubby's police check arrived in the mail after...what, four or five weeks? Sure, he's got a more common name than me (first name/surname combination) but it was getting a little ridiculous.
The paperwork is now in the mail to Monash IVF, so here's hoping that they receive it tomorrow and I can make the counselling and pathology appointments.
I haven't quite made it in to start on the down-regulating for next month, as I have a period due some time in the next week. But assuming that the blood test results come back normal, I'm crossing my fingers that this time in a month we'll be starting the process. :)
May 9, 2010
Happy Sunday
Good morning!
Today is Mother's Day here in Australia (and in a few other countries I'm told; it's easier to live in a bubble sometimes) and, while I thought it'd be a grand plan to avoid blogs and Facebook today, I'm in a good place.
Maybe it's because of the afternoon tea I'm throwing to honour my own mother today, or the fact that the police check for my hubby is on the way (as of Frikday; Public Enquiry Service told me so!), or that I'm finally letting go of the stress/anxiety related to trying to conceive.
Several friends and family have told me in the last fortnight that I seem 'full of energy' or 'positive', when they don't really know the whole story. Am I radiating positive thinking again? Maybe so, this is a big step if it's the case.
Happy Sunday to you, my fellow infertile friends. May this week continue to be a good one.
Today is Mother's Day here in Australia (and in a few other countries I'm told; it's easier to live in a bubble sometimes) and, while I thought it'd be a grand plan to avoid blogs and Facebook today, I'm in a good place.
Maybe it's because of the afternoon tea I'm throwing to honour my own mother today, or the fact that the police check for my hubby is on the way (as of Frikday; Public Enquiry Service told me so!), or that I'm finally letting go of the stress/anxiety related to trying to conceive.
Several friends and family have told me in the last fortnight that I seem 'full of energy' or 'positive', when they don't really know the whole story. Am I radiating positive thinking again? Maybe so, this is a big step if it's the case.
Happy Sunday to you, my fellow infertile friends. May this week continue to be a good one.
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